A little back story…  I have a friend that I’ve known for easily 15 years, almost 20.  We were very good friends for a long time, drifted apart, came back together, drifted apart, came back together.  During high school, she was someone who I had talked with about Wicca, and we had very similar beliefs, but nothing really came of it.  A few years ago I brought her to Styx & Stonz with me, but again nothing came of it.  We haven’t really talked very often, but we still have a very strong connection.  I saw her at another friends wedding a few months ago and she called me when she & her boyfriend of almost 7 years broke up and she came over (this was about a month ago).  It was great seeing her, but we haven’t talked in the past few weeks.  Well, she called me last night and asked if I could give her the name of “that store with the tarot cards and stuff”.  I gave her the name and asked her why she wanted to know, and she said that she’d dabbled with her friends pendulum but she wanted to get her own because she needed some answers.  Now, she’s Catholic/Lutheran, and isn’t very comfortable with switching to a different religion, and we got into this great conversation about the different paths of Paganism, and I asked if she’d want to go with me to Styx & Stonz tomorrow, to which she agreed happily.  I told her of my new path and beliefs, and I remember telling her that she just had to decide if this was something she wanted to do or not because you really shouldn’t just dabble.  Granted, there are Catholic Pagans, Christian Pagans, Jewish Pagans, etc. and I explained that to her, but I told her that I am now Pagan.  Eclectic Pagan, but a Pagan.  I told her though that you can’t look at a path and say “that’s where I am” but you’re really off to the side pointing there.  I guess that’s where I’ve been, off to the side pointing at what I want and where I want to be but not really being there.  Well, message received, time to get to business.  I’m going to Styx & Stonz tonight, and my husband has asked me to pick up a crystal for him (YAY!) and I have my smudging supplies for tomorrow.  I’m going to pick up a pendulum and a book, and get down to business.  FULL STEAM AHEAD!!!!

Blessings,

Saphyre986

  Last night before class, I had no idea what to expect.  I went into the class thinking we’d get a lesson on what Crystal Broadcasting is, but what I got was more valuable that I could have imagined.  Cass (the same lady that read my akashic records) was the instructor, and class was scheduled to start at 7, but since I was the only one there to attend, we started around 6:50.  I didn’t leave until almost 8:30.

  So, Cass brought out her pendulums, the book “Crystal Broadcasting” by Anne Brewer, the book “Feelings Buried Alive Never Die” by Karol K. Truman, and her dowsing book.  I had my notebook and pen out & ready, and she asked me what I’d done since our last reading.  I told her I’ve been working on my sound therapy homework, and I’ve been reading A LOT, just trying to learn as much as I can, but I don’t think I’ve found what I’m looking for just yet.  She said that it’s a great place to start and asked what I want to accomplish in my path.  To which I reply I want to gain knowledge.  I want to learn.  Anything.  Everything.  At this point, she decided to see where I’ve gone and how I’ve grown since my Akashic reading.  She called upon my spiritual committee and hers, and we went through the same dowsing process.  A LOTof the same things came up, but not all, so that means whatever I’m doing is working in some way.  However, some things were not the best.  I didn’t have anything that was really bad, just things that I need to work on, and that’s exactly what this class is for.  To teach me how I can change things in my own life, with my will and persistance.  GREAT!  So, using numerology, we figured out that my life path is a 6 which means all my lessons are related to groups.  I am in a 5 year which is all about change and freedom.  Hmmmm….  That sounds about right   We learned at my last reading that my throat chakra is the chakra that needed the most balancing, and that is still the case.  The stone Chrysocolla will help with that; it’s to help bring about a strong self image and promote the ability to communicate powerfully based on self truth.  I found a piece that felt right to me, and brought it home to join my collection.

  A majority of the information that was gathered last night was the most basic: I need to stop doubting myself & allow myself to grow spiritually.  I need to trust my intuition, throw caution to the wind, and start practicing Paganism.  I need to stop worrying that I’ll do something wrong, and I just need to experience it instead of just researching.  So, I’ve planned a smudging ritual for this friday during the new moon, and have a few more things in the works   I’ve started my Crystal Broadcasting in the mornings, and I’m using my Tarot Cards at night.  The biggest thing that I can think of that came up was my job.  I’m not happy here.  I haven’t been for a very long time.  It’s not what I want to do, it’s not interesting to me.  I have an opportunity to possibly intern at a place in the field that I want to be in, and I need to stop doubting myself and get prepared for an interview & just get on it.  Another big issue was that my energy sensitivity is still Power Plants, and for it to have come up yet again shows that I really need to work on this and find a way to let my energy grow without being held back.  It’s also affecting my crown Chakra, so I really need to get to fixing this problem.  Golden Topaz was the best crystal that we found out would work for me, so I picked up one of them as well.  I bought a few jewelry things today so that I can keep my Golden Topaz on me at all times, and I’m trying to think of some new ways to store my incense and tools as a little side project.

  I’m loving this journey.  Even though I have a lot of work ahead of me, I’m excited to meet all the challenges head on.  I’m eager to learn and grow and I look forward to every minute and every milestone.

Brightest Blessings,

Saphyre986

Well, I finished The Witches Shield by Christopher Penczak.  The information he gives is great, and the techniques are truly helpful.  However, his beliefs are very broad and eclectic.  He calls on and works with every deity imaginable; everything from celtic to wiccan to egyptian to greek to norse, etc.  It’s just a little much for me.  I believe that there are higher spirits that don’t incarnate, and that each faith sees/interprets the deities differently.  For example: Greeks had Zeus & Hera, Romans had Jupiter & Juno, Wiccans have the God and Goddess, Christians have God/Jesus and Mary, and Egyptians had Osiris and Isis. I believe that each religion has their version of each higher spirit/deity.  So while I understand that Christopher P. calls on each of these deities, I think many of them are one in the same, just in different forms.  It was a very interesting and informational read, and I’ve already put a few of his techniques into practice.

On the suggestion of a friend, I’ve picked up 3 books by Scott Cunningham: “The Encyclopedia of Magickal Herbs”, “Incense, Oils, & Brews“, and “Divination for Beginners“.  The Encyclopedia of Magickal Herbsis incredibly detailed.  It has drawn pictures of each plant/herb, descriptions, magickal uses, etc.  I think this book should be in every pagan’s library.  Incense, Oils, & Brewsis also proving to be a very valuable book.  The information provided is thorough and very well explained for even the beginning pagan.  Another book for the library.  The third book, Divination for Beginners I haven’t had a chance to read yet, but it is next on my list

The last book that I’ve picked up is Paganism, by River and Joyce Higginbotham.  They give a great introduction to the different pantheons of Paganism with great descriptions, and they share their experiences with each.  Also in the book they have sections in the chapters designed to give you ideas to reflect on, projects that could help you progress in your journey, and discussion topics that you can use with a group.  This is becoming one of my favorite books so far.  I’m only about half way through so I will update when I finish.

Then, by far the best news: I got to meet up with Rebecca!  She emailed me back on Thursday, the 3rd, about getting my email and also let me know about a group that she had formed.  She told me that there was a Pagan Pride Day on that saturday, and later that night the group would get together for a Full Moon Ritual & Potluck, and she invited me to join them.  AWESOME!!!!   My husband and I went to Pagan Pride Day downtown, and it was so much fun!  They had workshops all over the place, vendors, music, raffles, etc.  I got a beautiful new Moonstone ring, some white sage, a mini cauldron, and a very kaleidoscopic picture print.  Such an experience   And my husband was such a great support for me; I loved having him there   Later that night I met up for the ritual at D’s house.  There were 13 of us for the night’s festivities; a perfect coven.  Everyone was SO knowledgable and so very kind.  The full moon was hidden behind clouds for most of the evening, but just as we finished the ritual, the moon came out from behind the clouds and was sooooooo bright!  It was truly amazing   Around 9p.m. Rebecca and I left to grab some coffee and sit down for a chat.  We ended up at Baker’s Square, and stayed until closing at 11.  It was just amazing.  These great new people are coming into my life, and I love it!

Tonight I’ll be attending a Crystal Broadcasting class at Styx & Stonz.  I’ve also found out that a lady that I used to work with is on a similar spiritual path that I am, and I’ve invited her along to tonight’s class.  I really wish there was another word that I could use instead of “excited” because it sounds like it’s getting redundant, but I have not other way of expressing how thoroughly eager I am with this new path I’m on.  I love it!  I will try and post tomorrow about tonight’s class.

Bright Blessing to you all!

So I read the rest of chapter 2, then all of chapter 3 & 4.  Basically, chapter 2 was about identifying if you are surrounded by harmful energy or if you are under a form of psychic attack.  Chris went over everything from using pendulums to tarot cards to meditation, and he even gave his own experiences.  He also identifies ways that you could be attacked such as gifts from people you don’t consider a friend, maybe not an enemy, but not a friend either.  He gives symptoms of the effect of harmful energies, and shows you how to alleviate them in chapter 3.

  Chapter 4 discusses how to keep your energies healthy and explains the different levels of our energies.  The are 4 energy levels/bodies to everyone: physical body, emotional body, mental body, & soul body.  Picture your physical level as your actual body, then the 3 remaining levels as auras that encompass each other; one over the other.  Your physical body is related to the earth element; your emotional body is related to water; your mental body is related to air; and you soul body is related to fire.  Each of these need to be protected from outside attacks individually and he explains the best & most common ways for each.  He gives an overview of the rituals needed but doesn’t get into detail until later chapters.  So you have to read the majority of the book before you can attempt any of the rituals, which is good for the most part, but to be honest it’s hard to not want to skip ahead.   BUT, I’ve been good and am following the book the way it was intended to be followed.  The only thing that I may attempt in the next few days is to make my own rose water, which he shows how to do in either chapter 3 or 4, I forget.  His information and teachings are very interesting, and I really look forward to reading the rest of the book.

Blessings to all!

  He specifies in the book that he prefers using the terms Harmful or Helpful when speaking in regards to energy results rather than negative or positive as he explains that scientifically speaking, everyone needs positive & negative energy, but harmful energy use is something people definitely do not need.  He defines the different psychic attacks that he’s seen, plus strongly emphasizes that unknown to many people, we are the reason behind many harmful attacks.  Remember high school physics?  Energy can neither be created nor destroyed, only transformed.  He explains that every single thought is made of energy, and can affect the subject of the thought in a harmful or helpful manner.  For example, if you were to think, “I hate so & so”, this would be harmful energy thought about a specific person, and while it most likely wouldn’t result in them being severely hurt, it may cause them to feel down or transition into a slightly depressed mood.  While if you were to think, “So & so is such a sweet person”, this helpful energy might lift the individuals mood or brighten their day a little bit.  When someone starts to feel the effects of harmful energy, they are quick to assume that it must be someone attacking them.  They don’t stop to think that maybe having a poor outlook on their life or thinking harmful thoughts about themselves could actually be what’s affecting them.  Now, these were examples of direct thoughts about a specific person.  Thoughts about a situation or just a general thought however do not effect a specific person but rather the environment.  This is the reason behind certain places feeling peaceful or feeling uncomfortable.

  He also gives an example of how energy, whether harmful or helpful, could effect someone.  While at his speaking engagements, he has a volunteer come up to the stage.  He lifts a card towards the audience, so the volunteer can’t see it, with written instructions on it.  One time it is directing them to think harmful thoughts, and the other helpful thoughts towards the individual.  After a variety of tests during each experiment, the individual is shown to have more strength when helpful thoughts are sent and weaker when harmful thoughts are sent.  I’m curious to see what would happen if these same tests were done in a lab & monitored by equipment.  I would expect to see the same results, but it’d be very neat to see the physical evidence of psychic influence.

  As I read the book, I will keep reviewing it here, plus any others that I add to the mix.  I’ve brought another of his books to work with me today, “Spirit Allies: Meet Your Team From The Other Side” and plan to read it after work or while on my lunch break.  Until then:

Blessings & Good Thoughts to you all!

I had decided that I was going to get (2) 30 minute readings: 30 minutes for my Aura photo & reading & 30 minutes for my Akashic Records reading.  I was SO looking forward to any insight that they could give me, but bad news had come to Styx & Stonz on Saturday…  The Aura camera that they’ve had for (I think) 23 years, had taken it’s last picture the night before during testing.  I truly hope that they’ll either be able to have it fixed or that they’ll be able to afford a new one.  This was such a huge draw for their store, and I know Linda has had an awful month, so I truly hope that things start to get better for her.  But, since I’d already budgeted for (2) 30 minute readings, I decided that I’d splurge and get (1) 1 hour reading for my Akashic Records.  The first thing that comes to mind is “Time flies when you’re having fun!”  The reading felt like it was only 10 minutes, but I got so much great information!

A fantastic lady named Cass did my reading, and I must say she reduced me to tears within 10 minutes of starting.   So, to Cass: Thank you for your insight & wonderfully calm & caring nature.  I truly appreciate it and the knowledge you shared with me :)  Cass used dowsing to read my records, and it was so intriguing to see the practice first hand.  I’ve always found the idea interesting and have always wanted to study it, but never took that step.  Even before I mentioned anything in that regard, Cass said that she thought this would be a great tool for me, and that I might want to try it to develop my talents.  She suggested some books & a class that she will be giving in September, which I am eager to try.  Anyways, my reading was wonderful.  I learned some very valuable information, and of course there are somethings that I need to work on.

It seems that the lesson I’d selected to learn was to fully understand & embrace my spirituality.  I’ve been working on learning this for the last 7 lifetimes (can we say stubborn?), but have finally embraced the lesson, and can now explore the opportunities that are offered with this new knowledge.  Cass’ explanation was that you can’t know light, unless you know dark.  You can’t fully appreciate how deep spirituality goes and how freeing it is unless you are deprived of it & know only how strict organized religion is.  The way I learned this lesson was to face the deaths of some of the most important people in my life, my great-grandmother & my grandfather (see my below posts).  These two events directly caused me to question my then path, and to reevaluate my spirituality.  Cass also said, that even as rare as it is, those two people are now part of my spiritual committee, and they volunteered to help me learn this lesson.  That statement brings me to tears even days later.  That they would elect to live & die in the ways they did just so that I may find my way speaks even more to what wonderful and selfless souls they are.  I love them both so dearly…  Not a day goes by that I don’t think of them.  Because of them, I finally feel… right.  It took me a very long time to get to where I am, and a lot of pain along the way, but I’m here now.  That’s the important part.  It’s great to know that I am on the right path, and to confirm some of my own feelings.  I’ve found some new strengths and some weaknesses that I can work on, and I plan to have my Akashic Records read often.  There are still so many questions that I have and so much more to learn.

One other thing that I need to mention…  During my reading, Cass and I spoke about my interests, and Tarot Cards came up.  I mentioned that I’d love to learn them, and out of all the other people shoe knows that work with them, she said that Rebecca would be the best person to help me learn the cards.  HA!  I just started laughing when she said that.  I told her the background story of how Rebecca & I met, and she said that I definitely needed to contact her.  So, I did.  I sent her an email this morning and am anxiously awaiting her response.  I am quite nervous because writing someone and saying “Hi, I don’t know if you remember me but I met you a few months ago and you offered me some metaphysical help.  Well, I’d like to take you up on the offer “  Ugh…  So strange…  Of course the email wasn’t NEARLY that short, but it’s just so odd to me to email an almost complete stranger asking for advice & guidance.  So, now the waiting game.  I promise to keep you updated

Blessings to you all

Saphyre986

  I’ve been learning to read Tarot Cards, and the past few days have been very mixed readings.  Lots of warnings & notice of future trials & tribulations, but every reading seems to be split almost half and half between warnings and “good news” for lack of a better term.  There’s been quite a bit of expression around me coming in to my new found awareness and that this is a positive move for me.  Also about me being able to finally venture into the area of career that I want to be in, but they show that I’m holding myself back because I’m not yet willing to let go of my current career.  (I work for my aunt and I’m terrified of giving notice, especially since I don’t have any other jobs lined up.)  The warnings that I’ve gotten seem to revolve around there being those that will not support my new decisions so I should not share this new phase of my life with others, and also that I’m possibly learning & moving forward with too much too soon.  Well, my responses to all of this have been that I share everything with my husband, and I am not afraid of any negative feelings or actions from him.  He is more athiest than anything, but is still very open minded.  I have made the decision to not tell my family or discuss this with my friends as I know they won’t approve, so I’d rather just not put myself in the position for disapproval or negativity.  The too much too soon part really has me thrown for a loop though.  I’ve made the correct preparations so that when I read, I’m not putting myself in danger, and I have a pretty good sense of when to trust my “intuition”.

  There are two things that I guess I haven’t yet done…  1) I haven’t yet had my Akashic Records read, and 2) I don’t “know” my spirit guides, yet.  Both of these issues I am trying to rectify, and very soon.  My records will be read this weekend so that I can understand any past negativity that I’ve gained and am still dealing with in this lifetime, and I plan to start the process of getting to know my spirit guides within the next few days.  I just haven’t wanted to attempt anything without direction, so of course I’m waiting on a book being delivered.  Unfortunately I don’t have the capability of being taught by anyone in the area, so I have to resort to learning on my own.  There is one woman that I’d like to speak with about the Tarot Cards, but I won’t be able to see her for another 3 weeks.  She did my last Tarot reading, and she really made an impression.  I may end up emailing her before the 3 weeks as she offered to help me along the way when/if I decided to move down this path.  Light bulb!  Boy oh boy, what we forget…  Ha!  Already this blogging thing is helping me out   I’m definitely a little nervous to send an emailing to her writing something to the effect of “I hope you remember me, you offered me help a few months ago, and I’d really like some now…”  I really don’t like asking for help, but I’m trying to change a little bit here, so that may be the best way to go about this whole thing.  Erg.  Gotta start putting myself out there I guess if I really want to move forward.  So, three days into blogging I’ve had my first a-ha and am looking forward to many more.  I will update on Monday with how my readings went, and if I went through with contacting this other lady   Take care until then!

  I was raised between the baptist (mom’s side) & lutheran (dad’s side) faiths.  For the most part throughout my early life, I was firm in my faith, but I always questioned parts because to me, they just weren’t logical.  I loved science (and still do ).  I believe in evolution, and I remember so specifically one day asking my family “so, if you believe in evolution, does that mean that you can’t believe in God?  And if you believe in God, does that mean you can’t believe in evolution?”  And their reply was “Yes.”  Saying that these two things could not coexist made it very difficult for me to truly immerse myself in a faith.  There was no EVIDENCE of creationism, yet we have so much evidence of evolution.

  Years later, my mother decided to send me to vacation bible camp with my step-dad’s friends and their children.  The camp was for 5 days, and I stayed with this other family for the duration.  The church we went to did not allow young ladies & women to wear pants, and we were not allowed to wear skirts that were higher than 3 inches below our knees.  We were allowed to wear skorts and dresses only.  Men & young men alike were only allowed to wear shirts that had collars (i.e. polo shirts or dress shirts) and they must wear slacks.  NO JEANS EVER!  The speaker/pastor for the teen crowd was VERY good at capturing your attention and he was very enthusiastic about his faith.  He could convince you of everything and anything.  I left the camp feeling so high on my faith; I had no doubts.  I dismissed all scientific evidence of evolution and just thought we hadn’t found the evidence yet that would prove everything.  I also came home believing that my life had been ”bad”, and I needed to change & try to show everyone around me that their lives were ”bad” as well and they needed to be changed.  I stopped watching all tv, stopped listening to the radio (because any outside influence was bad for you), and went to church every Sunday, by myself.  My family didn’t have the faith that I did, yet they were the ones to send me to camp.  I had finally convinced my step dad that this church was awesome and they were so understanding and so fantastic that he needed to come with me.  One Sunday he finally did, and the sermon that day ended up being about money.  The pastor said that we should give all of our money to God, to the church, and that if we give him our money, he will provide.  Don’t worry about your mortgage, don’t worry about your bills, don’t worry about groceries or clothes, God will provide.  Needless to say, we left that day with a very sour taste in our mouths.  Forgive me, but if you don’t pay your mortgage & bills, you lose your house.  If you don’t buy groceries, you go hungry.  I never went back after that, and I felt taken advantage of.  I felt as if I’d been brainwashed.  My faith went back to the same conundrum that it had been before bible camp.

  Near the end of my eighth grade year, my great-grandmother passed away.  She was one of the most caring, generous, and spunky people that you could ever meet.  She loved life, and she helped raise me since I was a baby.  She lived with me, my mom, my step dad & my half brother, and she took care of us.  She loved cooking (she cooked every evening), and she picked up my half brother & me from school every day.  She loved us, and we loved her more than words could say.  Unfortunately, she suffered a long, painful, and very undignified death.  My faith was tested, and honestly after that it was shaken.  I started doubting even more, but I still went to church with my grandmother every once in a while.  I still believed in God, and I still prayed for guidance.

  Then, in my freshman year of high school, I discovered Wi.cca.  What a breath of fresh air!  It spoke to me on a level I couldn’t describe.  It felt like it was meant for me.  I met a girl a year older than me, and she was interested in it as well, and we started studying together.  I was reading more & more; I studied the craft.  I found more people practiced it than I could have ever imagined, and I was ecstatic that there were others like me.  I felt like I finally belonged somewhere, that I had finally found something I could understand and relate to.  But as time came closer for me to start practicing rather than just researching, I couldn’t let go of my baptist/lutheran teachings.  I couldn’t ignore everything I was taught.  I couldn’t fully transition to a new faith, so although I took some of the teachings with me, I couldn’t practice Wi.cca.  My mother found a ritual in my bedroom that a friend of mine had left at my house, and I was grounded for a very long time with an addition of more church time.  It was blasphemy of course, and I could go to hell for it.  Have I mentioned that I don’t think I’ve ever seen my mother go to church?  Hmmm…  Hypocritical, don’t you think?  Anyways, during my senior year in high school, my grandfather passed away.  He was the son of my great-grandmother that I mentioned, and just as she was a force of gravity in our lives, so was my he.  He had been the Chief of Police in my town for over 30 years, and was one of the best men I’ve ever known or will ever know.  He was honest, trusting, strong, inspiring…  He was just an all around good man.  I love him dearly and miss him to this day, almost 10 years later.  He, like his mother, suffered in great pain for a long time, and died a very cruel death.  His death more than shook my faith…  How could a God so loving, so merciful, let people that were so good and wonderful die so terribly?  How could he stand by and watch them suffer; watch them waste away; watch every last shred of their dignity fall apart?  HOW COULD HE?!?!?!  I was consumed with anger and resentment for so long, that even as I type this I find myself becoming angry all over again…  It’s so hard to think of these amazing people in our lives that we hold so high and so dear, knowing they passed in such terrible ways while there are murderers, rapists, drug dealers, etc. that are living unpunished.  Even if they are in prison, they have more luxuries than I would ever agree are deserved for their kind of filth.  I don’t believe that they should have free meals, cable tv, the right to write books and make money off of the reasons they were put in jail, their victims, in the first place.  But hey, that’s just me, and I’m working on letting go of that animosity.  But anyways, back to my story.

  For a very long time I was angry, hurt, and confused.  I felt betrayed by something that I thought I could always count on, and I wasn’t sure where that left me.  I no longer wanted to believe in God.  I doubted that there was a God, and I had to resort to the belief that this lifetime was all that we had.  When we died, we simply ceased to exist.  This is it.  I couldn’t come to terms with anything else because their deaths had affected me so harshly.  I’d pretended around my family because I didn’t want to upset them, but inside I felt empty.  My anger had taken any trace of my faith, consumed it and left me an empty shell.  My friends would talk about their faith, about how wonderful their God was and how they loved him and all I could think of was how I had lost some of the most important people in my life and that they shouldn’t have been taken like that.  I just felt angry and empty.  One of my friends even decided to be confirmed as a Catholic again, reaffirm her faith, and she asked me to come to the ceremony.  As much as I wanted not to go, I supported her decision and I went.  This was a big step for her, so I was there for her, sitting in a catholic church, surrounded by symbols that I despised.

  After I graduated high school, my mom, step dad & half brother moved across the country, and I moved into my dad’s apartment.  The thought & pull of alternative faiths/religions was always there, but I hadn’t dared even research them while I lived with my mom.  Not long after I moved in with my dad, my uncle brought my dad & I to a store called Styx & Stonz, where he was going to have his aura photographed & read.  Well, this store is actually a metaphysical store; an “alternative medicine/alternative religion” store, as my dad calls it.  They have candles, incense, tarot cards, rune stones, crystals, books, statues, and so much more.  Every month (now twice a month) they’d have a “Psychic Faire” where you could have your tarot cards read, your aura photos taken & read, your Akashic Records read, your energy cleaned, etc.  It was AWESOME!!! ( And still is )  I was beside myself with enjoyment, and again those feelings of belonging returned.  I felt I was meant to see this, to be here and experience it, to be involved in it.  A few years later, I went in alone for my first Aura Reading since my dad hadn’t approved of the practice, and it was amazing.  The man that read my aura, kept asking me if I was moving (like to a new town, not like bouncing in my seat), and I kept telling him no, I had no plans of moving.  He kept insisting that I was moving, and I kept insisting that I wasn’t.  3 weeks later, I (unexpectedly) moved out of my dad’s apartment.  That one experience had me coming back more often for my readings, and I’ve learned from each of them.

  For about  the last 4 years, I’ve let go of some or most of my anger/resentment, and I’ve felt that there was a higher power, but I wasn’t sure what that meant to me.  I don’t like organized religion, but I couldn’t override all of the teachings I’d learned from them either.  This past weekend, I was visiting my uncle (the one that introduced me to Styx & Stonz) and I got into a lengthy discussion with his sister & mother about Akashic Records, which I’d never heard of.  So, I did some research as soon as I got home, and I was instantly intrigued with the information I found.  I was initially just looking to see what the Akashic Records were, and if there was someone that I could have do a reading, then I found Akemi Gaines’ Akashic Record Reading website & her blog.  I read so much that day, and I’ve been reading about it since.  It felt like I was in the right place at the right time, and that I was meant to find this information.  Akemi’s site lead me to an article by Hunter Nuttal, called Lightworkers, Darkworkers, And The Other Kind, and I think his article, in particular, really made me rethink the direction my life is heading, and what I need to do/can do to change it.  So, after 25 years of confusion, I’m finally feeling like I’m starting to get on the right track.  I want to learn more about the Akashic Records, I want to find out more about me, and like I said, I finally feel that I’m on the right path.  My goal right now is to gain as much knowledge as possible,  have my Akashic Records read, and try to become more of a Lightworker, rather than being content as a “neutral worker”   This is such an exciting time for me, and I am so ready for it to begin.  Finally.